Maybe....

Maybe I should not be writing my blog now. Maybe I should be doing my slides for tomorrow's presentation now. Maybe things will get better next year. Maybe I will survive 2009. Maybe things would not be that bad we tell the truth all the time. Maybe things would be that bad if we know the truth. Maybe it is a blessing to be innocent. Maybe we should always stand up for ourselves. Maybe we should be the weakest sometime. Maybe someone, tell me what to do, tell me what to say. Maybe...... Maybe......

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Three weeks from tomorrow, I will be sitting for my 4th Actuarial Exam. To be more precise, it's my 3.5th exam. Have been trying hard to isolate myself from my computer and friends, so that I can piece my mind together and focus on the study material. It's hard but I will try for the sake of passing the exam. Wanted to break my passing pattern so much, this will be what I have to do. My pattern is passing actuarial exam on the second trial. That's nothing to be proud of, but I was lucky enough to only have to take each exam twice. Hopefully, this one will be done with the very first sitting.

My friend has just bought himself a puppy, and he named it Addy. Kind of looking forward to meet her as I have always wanted to get a pet, but the apartment I'm currently staying don't allow any pets. Maybe it's time to move......

I really hope that things will all get better, soon. Please. At least something happen exactly the way I want it to. Really hope that after all these hard times are over, there will be brightness ahead......

Homesick......

Last Sunday, after I talked to papa and mama on the phone, I felt the worst homesick ever since I have come to the states. I missed them, the food, mamak's stall, loitering in city square, and my friends in JB. Though there are plenty of Malaysians studying in Drake, I don't feel the same way I felt towards my friends in JB. Most probably because of we all grew up with different background. Having been talked on the phone for more than two hours with one of my friends, I felt better. Thank you so much for not sleeping early.

I know this might be totally irrelevant to the topic.On the same day, I heard the news that Mr. Tan, who was a great man with the most significant contribution in teaching Malaysians how to appreciate music, passed away around 3 am Central Time zone. http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2008/7/30/nation/21952180&sec=nation

Haven't been updating my blog for a long long time. Still with the same bad excuse of being lazy and procrastinate. I always wanted to improve my writing skills but seems like it won't work when I always come up with a lot of reasons for not posting anything new. People out there, please motivate me with some scolding............

"The only thing that is predictable about life, is its unpredictability." quote from the movie Ratatoullie. We can never predict what's going to change, and what's going to stay constant. These few months of job hunting has been wasted. It has been few months of wasting time and energy. Waiting for phone calls from companies are really not that exciting, or fun. Every morning when I woke up, turning on my computer, hoping to receive or not to receive emails from those companies that I applied. Hope to receive emails with "We would like to schedule an interview with you...", hope not to receive emails with "While your background has many impressive aspects, we have selected candidates who more closely fit our current business needs...". This year hasn't really been treating me well. Few months of wondering around, everyday waiting for phone calls.
I have started to doubt my capability, was I really that bad until there is no place for me in the States? Luckily, I was able to somehow figure out it's not my interviewing skills problem. It's because US government had made it so hard for foreign students to get a job here. I have actually gotten a job offer from one company, but after they realized I would need sponsorship for future employment, they took the offer back. That really sucks!
All I can do now, is continue my job searching while at the same time, enroll into grad school and finish my MBA. Please, at least have one options work out for me alright? Dearest Year 2008.

Well, I can fight only 21 of them but not kill them. I might be able to get higher number by killing. Haha.
21

It's just around the corner now

Well, it's been two months and 4 days since I have graduated. But I am still JOBLESS. I have started my job searching during my final semester. Can't quite describe the feeling but kind of sad, disappointed, and regret. Is my stay in US coming to an end soon? Is it really just around the corner now? I have done several phone interviews and heard no good news from none of them yet. I think I really suck at doing phone interviews. Don't really know how to stand out from other candidates. Where do I see myself in 5 years? Man, I know it's asking about my short term goal but, how should I distinct myself? Ran out of ideas........

It's been a while

It has really been a while since my last entry. Laziness might be the only valid reason for abandoning my blog for so long. Brad Lee is planning to eliminate my name from the cousin blog ring and Mia forced me to update my blog, even my dad has long time ago given up on my blog already. haha. But thanks a lot because I would never do it without a push.

December 21st, 2007, my graduation date from Drake University. It wasn't that special after all. Nothing really happened and the day just swept away without any notice. Well maybe something did happen but it's been a while since it happened. Few days after my graduation date, I flew to Austin, TX to have the greatest reunion with my "long lost" cousins and my Da Gu Gu and Uncle Bill. Cousins who involved in the reunion were Kai, Leah, Wei, Min, and myself. My lovely brother was supposed to come but he was too busy...... We really had a lot of fun. Walking around Austin area, taking pictures of our favorite building in Austin (the capitol building), "Bomb"ing each other around, and most important thing, my first Christmas celebration in the States. It was a lot of fun during the gift unwrapping session. It was supposed to occur in the morning, but we end up unwrapping our Christmas gifts at night. The worst part is, I forgot to buy presents for both Kiki (Princess) and Yoshi. Probably that's why they got mad and took each other pictures on my bed. Oh for Christmas gifts, I really need to thank Miss Mia for remembering me while sending bags and wallets over to the states.

I have to mention this 'cause I don't want Kai to be upset. We took some great pictures with the most famous guitarist in the world, STEVE RAY VAUGHN!!!! We were SO excited about it. Wei, Min and I traveled all the way south to Austin just to get a glimpse of his statue. We were so glad that Kai took us there. Haha. Seriously, Kai and Leah had been giving us a lot of attention. They took us around, had fun with us. You guys are great!! My Da Gu Gu cooked a lot of delicious food for us and most importantly, she redeemed her mileage points for my ticket!! I couldn't do much in return but made DouFuHua in return.

That reunion had really meant a lot to me because it was the second, third, and forth time I have met them. Second for Min, third for Wei, and Kai, and the forth time for Leah, if I did not miscount it. Wei and Min have always been lovely but both of them are no longer available. Haha. Wei did not really keep it a secret but for Min, we found out the boy accidentally. Haha. Oops.....