Thoughts and updates

I know, I know. It's been a while since the last post. Finally decided to log in here, move the cursor to "New Post"......

Nothing changed much since the last post. Another excuse for not writing it down. Can't really remember all the details of things that happened. Maybe I wasn't really paying a lot of attention to my surrounding. Been living in my own tiny little bubble. The only thing I realized is, this summer has been mild and hopefully its not the calm before storm.

This summer, picked up golfing and been going to the driving range a lot. Wanted to get better desperately. Yeah I know, even in my blog talked about golf. Well at least I found something that I really want to be good at. Might be one of those things that the passion fades pretty quickly. We'll see. Finally have the feeling that I'm actually living my life. Might be the "Yes Man" effect. But no worries, I'm only saying Yes to things that I want to do. Living my life with more variety instead of starring at my screen and kill people in the virtual world. Outdoor activities are so much more interesting.

Fairness. We all seek for it and usually don't see everything turns out to be fair. We always think retribution will come to those who did harm to people but maybe the bad person (from our perspective), might have done something good else where that surpasses his bad deeds. I might not have harmed anybody but I didn't do anything good enough. Still an average person that deserves nothing.

Maybe....

Maybe I should not be writing my blog now. Maybe I should be doing my slides for tomorrow's presentation now. Maybe things will get better next year. Maybe I will survive 2009. Maybe things would not be that bad we tell the truth all the time. Maybe things would be that bad if we know the truth. Maybe it is a blessing to be innocent. Maybe we should always stand up for ourselves. Maybe we should be the weakest sometime. Maybe someone, tell me what to do, tell me what to say. Maybe...... Maybe......

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Three weeks from tomorrow, I will be sitting for my 4th Actuarial Exam. To be more precise, it's my 3.5th exam. Have been trying hard to isolate myself from my computer and friends, so that I can piece my mind together and focus on the study material. It's hard but I will try for the sake of passing the exam. Wanted to break my passing pattern so much, this will be what I have to do. My pattern is passing actuarial exam on the second trial. That's nothing to be proud of, but I was lucky enough to only have to take each exam twice. Hopefully, this one will be done with the very first sitting.

My friend has just bought himself a puppy, and he named it Addy. Kind of looking forward to meet her as I have always wanted to get a pet, but the apartment I'm currently staying don't allow any pets. Maybe it's time to move......

I really hope that things will all get better, soon. Please. At least something happen exactly the way I want it to. Really hope that after all these hard times are over, there will be brightness ahead......

Homesick......

Last Sunday, after I talked to papa and mama on the phone, I felt the worst homesick ever since I have come to the states. I missed them, the food, mamak's stall, loitering in city square, and my friends in JB. Though there are plenty of Malaysians studying in Drake, I don't feel the same way I felt towards my friends in JB. Most probably because of we all grew up with different background. Having been talked on the phone for more than two hours with one of my friends, I felt better. Thank you so much for not sleeping early.

I know this might be totally irrelevant to the topic.On the same day, I heard the news that Mr. Tan, who was a great man with the most significant contribution in teaching Malaysians how to appreciate music, passed away around 3 am Central Time zone. http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2008/7/30/nation/21952180&sec=nation